The hateful way to love someone
We’ve all been trough some rough paths in our lives. Some of us got a good thing from there and there is a part of us , wehere i stand, where we started abusing of something, creating an addiction. There is alcohol, cigarettes, drugs, food an person addiction.
The last one is mine. The person addiction is relatively unknown, and somehow some of us, don’t even really see that like someting real. Well, it is, and it’s getting on you like a parasite, making u blind and also making u feel ok in the arms of a ‘once known ‘as good person. That lover that u kept for so long because it felt right.
I’m not talking about abbusive behaviour, but the fact that even when a relationship is making u feel bad and u can’t get away, can’t say stop and move on like a normal human would do.
The bitter sweet relationship made me addicted to my own fears. I couldn’t stay away, of course that the love was real, but the rational side of me said more than once ,is more than obvious taht this is going to nothing.
So there was a point where ..none of us said yes, and there it was ,,over. I was alone, tryig to understand how can I live without him, and how come he is not comng back.
And then i realised my addcition and since that point I am still trying to let go.The first step is to realise the problem, of course the next one is to seek help and talk to friends about what you think is best. So I did. And felt relieved. Hope is there for me.. hope is there for everyone !
Here is an article I’ve read on psychcentral before writing this post!